words i’ve been trying to say

tired of losing friends and losing sleep

tired of erasing all our memories

i want to blame you but it’s mostly me

hurting alone when i just want peace

but i’m in pieces, jesus, i’m on my knees

praying to god but i don’t believe – 

maybe salvation just isn’t for me

i use drugs so i can breathe. so i can sleep

it makes me weak

it’s just so easy

you know me, i like sweet dreams

i know it’s been like i’m stuck between

like i can’t really speak. like i can’t really reach

for words but i’m screaming underneath

all these tangled sheets

i feel so incomplete

writing poems i hope you see

but don’t confuse pain with poetry