a letter to my future self

I was looking through some of my notes and found this lovely gem that I wrote to myself. God, I’m so weird sometimes.

I was debating whether or not to post this… But since I’m trying to be more honest here I figured, eh why not? So, dear readers, here is a little peek inside my head. Enjoy.

Hey me, whaddup? This has been such a recurring trend that honestly I really love. How are you feeling? Think carefully about the answer because you can’t bullshit me (well, yourself, really). If you aren’t feeling too good – DON’T WORRY ABOUT IT. You’re always feeling sad. This is not a bad thing. It is a fact. Now the good thing is that you’re so much more prepared than the average girl. You’ve got this and you know it. Take a deep breath. Try to center yourself. Feel your eyes follow every curve and line on this page. Breathe in and out as you trace your eyes on the motion of the words. You are okay. You are okay. Mom and dad love you so much. Past you loves you so much! Barry Allen loves you so much! If you’re still into that… Which I hope you are. Please don’t forget to pick up a book sometime! You know how much you love that. Don’t force yourself to do things you don’t like for people who do not care about you. People are so fucking stupid, but you know what? You can ignore them. Stay inside. Treat yourself. Take care of yourself! Stop putting others ahead of you, okay? The world is a terrible place sometimes, but you are so strong. You are going to make it. Now matter how low you think you’ve dropped, you can always pick yourself up and try again. You can do this. Just take a deep breath. Take it day by day. Don’t forget to look up. Look at the stars once in a while. Appreciate life and all it has to offer. You are lucky, you are loved.

Love, September 28, 2017 me

P.S. Go to the gym too – run on the track, it’s sooo healthy

P.S.S. Call dad sometime

If you liked this post, check out part 2 of “a letter to my future self” here. Thanks for reading!