all this time i’ve been angry at myself for hoping you never give up on me. for wanting you to love me forever. how pathetic is that to admit
i feel awfully selfish
i’m sleeping with your sweater again tonight
all this time i’ve been angry at myself for hoping you never give up on me. for wanting you to love me forever. how pathetic is that to admit
i feel awfully selfish
i’m sleeping with your sweater again tonight
black and blue
still stains my skin
still stains my soul
from nights i don’t want to remember
nights i cannot seem to forget
why do i do this to myself?
my fault
always my fault
i wanted it to be good
i wanted to be good
i keep sinking
into this hole i keep digging
the hole inside my heart
somehow keeps expanding
you call it art
but it tears me apart
inside, always keeping it
inside
— i am falling apart
shared breaths
and unspoken words
eyes wide open
murmurs, sighs
muted thuds
and lilac skies
cold bedsheets
and easy lies
— this is what guilt tastes like