Dear body,
Thank you for taking care of me. Thank you for being strong even though I never really treated you well. I’m sorry for all the little accidents, like tripping and hurting you. Or burning you when I baked those Christmas cookies. Do you remember that? Of course, you do, you remember everything. But those were accidents and I know you forgave me for them. Sometimes I hurt you on purpose too. And you still forgave me. I’m so sorry for all the scars. For all the smoke and poison that I forced you to take. Sometimes, I just feel so trapped in my mind that I have to take it out on you. That was unfair of me and I shouldn’t have done it. I know that now. I’m sorry for all the shit I put into you – all the junk and sugar that you did not deserve. I’m sorry I starved you because of someone else’s words. You only wanted to be strong and protect me. I’m sorry for not seeing your worth. For looking in the mirror and thinking too fat or too ugly. I’m sorry I covered you up with makeup. I’m sorry I let other people touch you even though you didn’t want them to. I’m sorry for everything. I’ll try harder, I promise. You’ve taken care of me my whole life. Now, it’s my turn to take care of you.
Love,
Me
liquid guilt 